Sunday, March 20, 2011

Do you dream of your baby?

I would really like to extend warm thanks to each one who commented on my posts. It means a lot to me.

Few weeks ago we'd been to the temple. There's a small lane with lot many shops that sell temple related stuff - flowers, fruits, sweets, oil, pictures of gods. I picked up the above picture which is in actual an A3 sized portrait. We found a suitable frame. And the pic now hangs in my bedroom wall positioned in such a way that its the first thing one can set their eyes on in the morning.

The reason why am talking about this is because V (my husband), told me that he dreamt of our baby. He's a bigger boy, he said. I was so glad to hear that. I never dream about my son. I think of him all the time and want to see him in my dream, yet it never happens. I asked V to describe our son. He said he was a cute, plump boy, and couldn't remember all the details but that he was standing behind a wall, bent slightly with his hands on his knees, with mischievous eyes and intently listening to our conversation. While V & I sat in our living room watching TV and discussing something. Our cutie is eavesdropping. So lovely. We kept discussing this dream again & again. I want to know more about my boy, what he does, what are his likes, how does his voice sound etc. but V doesn't remember anything else. Apart from this one image. After some thought, we concluded that the picture hanging on our bedroom wall might have provoked such a dream. In any case, something to hang on for poor us.

Another dream he'd seen sometime before the above one was with me lying in the hospital bed with a baby next to me. A living baby. And he's coming over to visit us and is so happy to celebrate the birth like all fathers. (In real life, with my first son, we didn't get a chance to do that)

If you are reading my post, I would like to know if you get dreams about your baby. Or do you have any idea why I'm not able to see him in my dreams? I just get useless dreams.

How I wish this whole affair was a mere nightmare and when I woke up my son was still alive. But, am just left hoping. 


  1. I am so sorry for your loss of your sweet little boy. I too wish this was a nightmare that I could wake up from. I also never dream of my daughter. I want do desperately to dream of her like I have heard other grieving mothers talk about. I continue to hope she will visit my dreams. My thoughts are with you.
    The picture of baby Lord Krishna is absolutely beautiful. And to see it and hear of your husband's dream brought tears to my eyes.

  2. Beautiful picture. I love the baby Lord Krishna image. Your husband's dream gave me chills. I ache to dream of my daughter, just to get to know her in that other realm. I dreamt her one time, before she died. I clung to that for a long time since it was the only time I saw her move, or smile, or laugh. I miss her. It has been two years, and I still haven't had a dream. Sending love to you. xo

  3. I have dreamt of my baby as well but don't remember how he looked like in my dreams. In fact I dream about him a lot.. that also includes decent amount of day dreaming. Dreaming how my life would be if he hadn't left me 7 months and a week ago. Perhaps dreams are all I have of him. Like u not a single picture. And I didn't even get to see him.

  4. I've never dreamt of my son. In my dreams I know my baby has died and I am sad even in my dreams- how unfair is that?