Also, there will be many who knew I were pregnant and had gone off to have a baby but wouldn't know what happened to me afterwards. So they will ask me. I will have to tell my sad story to them. There will also be people totally new who would want to know if I have any children. I will have to decide as to, to whom I can tell or not tell.
Its a sad life. I can feel the sad circular waves emanating from my body and soul into this universe. As the waves get farther and farther from me they are absorbed by the gigantic universe which is least affected by it. My sadness is treated like a drop in the sea of sorrow. But for me, it is the entire ocean, where I'm drowning everyday. Am not dying. But there is no way of escape from this ocean either.