I have been debating whether I should be posting this update. Because, it seems so unreal, far- fetched. It feels like a dream where you know you are dreaming and know that this wont be there when you wake up. It's all a big lie.
I'm scared to post this because it feels like a big lie. And it's only a matter of time before it will be revealed to me.
I have not spoken about this to anyone in my real life. My parents know because they are with us here now. Am not planning to tell this to my brother either, or in-laws.
Okay, so the news is, today at the scan, we saw not one but two sacs. With two heartbeats. One measured 6w3d, and another 6w1d. One's heartbeat was at 118, another's, I didn't hear what doctor said. To be brutally honest, this possibility had crossed my mind after I discovered OHSS, and the high HCG. But somehow, I didn't expect to see two beans there today.
I have never imagined myself as a twin momma. Even now, even if I force my mind, it's impossible to see any such fantasy. I truly don't believe this can happen. After being at the receiving end for such a long time, it's impossible to believe good things will happen to me.
But I wanted to share the news here. After the scan at the fertility clinic, I made a call to the high risk OB who I have started seeing. When I told her the news, she asked me 'if they checked my cervix length?' I said no. She has asked me to come over this weekend to check this. I will be discussing with her my issues with leaking water. I'm leaking few drops of water everyday from my 'v' area. Colorless, odorless, few drops. It started soon after IUI. The infertility specialist thinks such discharge is normal but I don't believe him.
So I have more than one reason to not believe what's happening with me, correct?
Wow Two! That is great news. I know there is alot to worry about, its good that you are monitering everything and seeing the best OB's. Take it slow and day by day. xo
ReplyDelete:) This put a huge smile on my face. :)
ReplyDeleteI'm glad to hear the high risk OB is taking your concerns seriously and is going to monitor your cervical length closely, all great news.
As for the drops, discharge is totally normal, but glad you're getting looked at anyway. :)
That's exciting! I know 100% the fear/unreality you feel, too. We're all pulling for you and your two little beans. Hugs!
ReplyDeleteTears of joy, I am so happy for you!
ReplyDeleteAmazing news. I can relate to the not believing it's really true part. I'm still in denial about the whole thing myself. 2 babies would be an amazing blessing!!!
ReplyDeleteWhat great news!! Congrats to you :)
ReplyDeleteAbsolutely wonderful news and such a blessing!
ReplyDeleteI am so happy for you, i started to cry!! I know it must be so weird, must be so hard to believe it all. I seriously can not even imagine. Bu ti am so so so happy for you and i will keep you and Vitu and the two little ones in my heart and well wishes.
ReplyDeletexo!
I want to say that I have not been back to blogger in a while and to see this has brought great joy. I am so happy for you. You will be in my prayers.
ReplyDeleteI've been away, but wanted you to know I have been thinking of you and little Vitu and I am so happy to hear this news. Will be sending lots of love and positive vibes your way~
ReplyDeleteOh, Sweet Girl...your journey has taken on a whole new level of scary. (You know that I am the mother of lost twins...conceived through ART...you follow my blog.) I had wondered whether this was a possiblity for you. We can do nothing but try to hold onto a little hope, and I know the "unreal" part is more than doubled for you now. Hugs and warm wishes and I'll be keeping you in my thoughts daily!
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