Friday, June 10, 2011

Some update from my side

It's been a few days since i wrote a post but I have been reading all the blm blogs whenever I could find some time. Thanks for your responses to my last blog. My scar hurts a little less now. But it's sad to remember each time that there is a scar deep down which will never never go away.

It was a better decision to go to work. In a way, days pass quickly now, and although I don't look forward for a new day, somehow it's good to note the dates in calendar being struck away.

I consistently think of what I were doing the same day, same time last year. I was on the moon, indescribably happy, about 8 weeks pregnant with my son. I had lot of morning sickness and had missed one or two days of work already. Now, with a very hot Dubai, am sick sometimes. I walk to the washroom in my office, and look at the mirror, and try to find the person who was sick and happy there last year same time. I don't find her. It's just a sad, super sad, pathetic person I see in the mirror now.

Babies shouldn't die. Honestly, it hurts a lot. I never imagined once that my baby would die and I would be standing here. It's sad beyond words.

I saw a new OB few days ago whom I googled and found to be a high risk doctor in Dubai. Now she told me I can start trying for a baby and she will take care of me. She told me there is a very high possibility that everything will be fine next time. My husband liked her very much.

So I will start trying next month onwards. I really don't believe I will get pregnant right away. I have never been that lucky anytime in my life. Moreover, I have pcos, my husband's count is not super's a tough road ahead.

Wish everyone a good weekend or at least a bearable weekend.


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  2. I remember one person saying to me, "Bad things happen." I will never forget this woman who made that comment. She seemed so out of touch with what I was experiencing. This person works in the healthcare/mental health field. Needless to say I did not go back and see her again.

    I wish you and your husband best of luck in trying to conceive. I hope you are pregnant soon and able to hold a baby in your arms.

    Thinking of you and hope your well.

  3. Thinking of you and your little Vitu!

  4. I am glad you found an Ob that seems so positive and will be there with you every step of the way through the next pregnancy:)
    Praying for positive pregnancy tests for both of us with in the next few months:)

  5. I am glad the scar is hurting less. It must be a sad reminder of losing the baby. Hoping for a BFP for you soon!